My blog is a way for me to share in the wonder of each day. I know there are others like me that due to medical issues have our days numbered and would like to make the most of them in a positive and gifting way for ourselves and for those around us.



Wednesday, December 28, 2011

End of Year 2011

I Know I've been MIA for a few months now but sometimes life catches up and even runs a person over. Mac Last March on his 82nd Birthday
We've had a hectic, sometimes very sad and sometimes very happy days lately. In October, after my last post, my father-in-law, Mac that had been living with us since last April and going through cancer treatments succumbed to the desease. He was in terrible pain in the last days and weeks and declined quickly. We are very sad but yet very thankful he is no longer in pain and suffering so. My Dad, My Husband and his father Mac
It's hard to help someone when all you can do is be there and can't take the pain and desease away from them. It was also bittersweet, spending those months with him because we got to spend alot of time talking and just doing little things that created comradere and closeness. I know my husband will always treasure those moments they spent just sitting together talking about nothing in particular. This summer before he got totally down with the cancer we were able to get him out fishing on the boat twice and fishing and sitting at the little ponds near our house several times as well. I took him on several drives up into the low lying hills against the mountains around Pikes Peak and just looked at the scenery. Mac's Last Boat Ride in September
Mac at the Ponds near our house
Our dogs, both Mrytle and Mable were his buddies and watched over him constantly. It was obvious they sensed his illness and pain and worried over him. They moped at the top of the stairs watching down at the front door waiting for him to come home, after he went to the hospital the last time, for days and days. I guess we have too in our own way. Mable
Our dogs, both Mrytle and Mable were his buddies and watched over him constantly. It was obvious they sensed his illness and pain and worried over him. They moped at the top of the stairs watching down at the front door waiting for him to come home, after he went to the hospital the last time, for days and days. I guess we have too in our own way. Myrtle
Through out all of this I have been extremely aware and talked to my father-in-law about the fact that "EACH DAY IS A GIFT!" I think he embraced that and tried to do just that. He kept his positive attitude and didn't give up until the very end. He did enjoy many of the small moments every day and got to read maybe 50 or 60 books over those months that he hasn't been able to do in many years. He loved reading and I was hard put to keep him supplied but it was such a joy to see him contentedly reading and not concentrating on his situation or pain. Some of Mac's Special moments and gifted days
Most people have experienced some kind of loss among their family and friends so I know you probably have had the wistful feelings of emptiness we are feeling here. He missed all the last major holidays this year that we were looking forward to making extra special for him knowing they would probably be his last, but nothing is worth going through the extreme pain many people experience with last stages of many types of cancer, so in the end we are thankful he is free. I do hope to get back to blogging more soon but have just been regrouping and keeping things going with family and friends through the busy holiday season and our mutts too. The grandkids needed attention of course and I hope to spend more time in that arena in the new year. I hope to get out and visit each of you as I can and see what all I've missed in your lives and blogs in the last few months. Take care and God Bless!