One year after I was given the news that my medical condition was such that without intervention I had less than 20% chance of surviving 2 years. Fortunately for me, due to the miracle of medical discoveries and medication and family prayers, I am still here and feeling better physically than I did at the time of my diagnosis.
The first 6 months were the worst as I felt very low both physically and spiritually. My emotions were all over the place, but I was determined to be positive even though the end might be near. I began the process of gathering all of the financial and personal information that might be needed later on and I started flagging items or giving items away to those I wanted to have them. I began throwing away or donating many other things so that my family wouldn't have so much to wade through later on. Much of this took months to do since my physical condition limited my strength and ability to get about.
Just about the time I truly came to terms with my situation and started actually feeling positive I began to feel better with the new medication they had me on (one of 14 types). I decided that for however long I could still go on living and looking for the good in each day.
Now, I am feeling much better both physically and emotionally. I am still living each day with the knowledge that at anytime things can turn for the worse and I might be looking at or experiencing my end times. But, until that time, there is no reason to sit around worrying about it when I can eagerly look forward to time with my grandkids and other family and friends. I have finally, this last year, picked up painting which I have wanted to do since highschool. I am trying to paint a picture for each of my siblings and parents and special friends. I will continue until I can't and hopefully I will accomplish something in giving some part of me to others.
I will try to write in my blog some of the things that I face and feel and hopefully it will be of some use for someone else or maybe it will open the door for someone else to share their situation and feelings.
For today, that's all folks. :)